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released 18 January 2013

All tracks written and recorded by Bob Baxter

Guest vocals on tracks 2 and 6 by Lakota Gordon
Guest vocals on tracks 1, 3, 10, 11, 12, and 13 by Trisha Sanislo
Songs 9-11 based on writings by Jeremiah Graham

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Track Name: Bedtime Stories
You know, before I sleep I lock every door
There are things that people want from me
And I think you should know

I'll give you all you need
To be the greatest man to ever sing a song
Or write a tune that can change how people think
Oh, it's true

So, listen close to me
Don't forget a story
My mistakes will help you one day
Because when you're on top you're just alone and afraid

I was about your age when the magic came to me
With birds whistling in the forest
My parents used their words to make a livelihood with work
And we kept it contained within our home

On my 13th birthday I got my first guitar
I played until my hands bled
And I started writing all these songs
I didn't know what I was doing
I know there isn't much for you to say
But I will save you from these things
That put my talents to waste

When I learned to sing I gave up what a normal child would do
I wanted to move the world
And believe you me
It takes more than a day for you to reap the reward
It takes discipline

And it takes time
And it takes the courage to face your fears
And it takes might
And it takes the strength to change yourself
Track Name: Don't Hold Your Breath
Don't hold your breath
Because every word deserves its time
I know I'm just a wicked man
But I'm wiser at this point in life

There's nothing better
Than the feeling of the air that surrounds your body
And watching everything move in slow motion
(Only to savor your words)
There's nothing better
Than the feeling of the warmth that will form your magic
And making the world change
(However you want to)

So, don't hold your breath
Because every man deserves his time
I speak from experience
And I hope you will find the right melodies

I hope you find a way to use your voice to set your heart ablaze
And use the echoes as a sign for when the world is too dark to see

An aging man would see
That there's no recourse for the blood that was taken from those innocent bodies
And I could never begin to explain how wrong it feels to steal the song of your kin

There's nothing better
Than the feeling of the air that surrounds your body
And watching everything move in slow motion
(Only to savor your words)
There's nothing better
Than the feeling of the warmth that will form your magic
And making the world change
(However you want to)

So, don't hold your breath
Because every voice deserves its time
You'll feel in your heart when the song is right
So, don't hold your breath
Oh Baby Boy, I see myself in your eyes
You will feel in your heart
Track Name: Whisper
There's a picture of you here
Standing right beside me
With the warm summer wind coursing through your dress
But now I'm so alone
And now I must move on
There's a world outside our boring little home
And I will seize it
I will squeeze every inch of life that it has
Until I'm whole

Mighty oaks from little acorns grow
Don't let her know

The world will now whisper my name
The thought of me will bring so much fear
To all the powerless ones that can't find their voice
The world will now whisper my name
A silent song in your ears
A triumph of all that I've done
So, let's rejoice

It's the power that compels me to search for higher life
The water is cold here but it will surely open your eyes
It will steal from your lungs
It will furrow your brow
But you will be known for your sound

And as I ascend into the highest of the sky
My lungs are caving in
I now approach the man that I once strived to be

The world will now whisper my name
The thought of me will bring so much fear
To all the powerless ones that can't find their voice
The world will now whisper my name
A silent song in your ears
A triumph of all that I've done
So, let's rejoice
Track Name: I Bring This Upon Myself
There is simply an order
In which the thoughts seep into my brain
And on top of all, I think
I must stay miserable or it all fades away
I'm backed in a corner to create aural alchemy
It just gets harder when I'm running circles in my ever-present hate

I bring this upon myself
It's the only way I can write these spells anymore
I need a sense that I'm just about to fall right off the world

There is simply an order
In which the words fall onto the page
And most all, I think
A bird helps conjure what the people want to say
I'm backed in corner to create something moving
But it just gets harder when you're not moved by anything
Track Name: Way With Words
It's just a matter of time before I get that feeling again
I lock myself in the basement of an empty house when it gets too intense
There's a quiet ringing in the corner of my brain
And it's so bloody hard to suppress the call to kill again

I have to bribe the demons with a beautiful woman that's not my own
I sing to her all those wonderful lines all the other men can't control
There's a quiet moment in the night when she's all mine
And the darkness surrounds
She's now ready to be my prey
When the darkness surrounds her face
She'll be mine to take

I remember being so cold I was shaking
Oh she warmed me up
Surrendered those beautiful eyes
It wasn't right to do
But I learned that night what it's like to be taken in the night

It's just a matter of time before I get that feeling again
I'm stealing eyes and feeding them lies just to find a way
There has to be a way to quiet my insistent hunger for your legs
And it's so fucking hard to resist it

I have my way with words
Track Name: Persistence of Time
And they all sounds the same
All the people that are calling my name
I am too fixed on the songs that I sing
And I feel I don't have much time

I just feel helpless against the clock
Wasting away
With hours and days of talking up things that I need to do

Persistence of time is taking over my mind
I don't know why I stopped sleeping
And I'm always awake when I'm dreaming of time taking over my mind

I'm the same man, but with stronger hands
And I've broken all my ties
But these nimble hands have made me envy of my kind
Would I trade my love from the gift to compose?
Well I gave up too much to write these notes

Would I burn all of my trust?
I don't know of a single person I haven't hurt
Why should I waste my precious time?

Persistence of time is taking over my mind
I don't know why I stopped sleeping
And I'm always awake when I'm dreaming of time taking over my mind

Should I waste my time with sleep when I know that I am meant for much greater things?
Would I kill just to transcend?
I would do disgusting things to stand in the end

Persistence of time is taking over my mind
I don't know why I stopped sleeping
And I'm always awake when I'm dreaming of time taking over my mind
Track Name: Stay Hungry
So, stay hungry and never let them see your weaknesses

Don't close your heart to music like your father did
You'll regret yourself when you're older kid
The weight of your words are like hammers
You can turn the world around or you can sit down and shut up and let someone else take your place

Use your time to raise the bar for yourself
There will always be wolves on your tail
You have to stay hungry to be the king of the hill
So stay hungry, boy
Don't let them take you down

So, stay hungry and never let them see your weaknesses
So, stay hungry or you'll be climbing to the top again
Track Name: Alone In This World
I finally built myself up as a young man with too much to prove
And it wore me down
I showed them all
But to what end would I stop?
Oh, I couldn't tell

I was so stupid and bold
I'd stab you in the back for the chance to be known
I cannot fight the fear that I had as a child
I was alone in this world
And I...

And I still am, due to the way that I've been
And I still am left to my devices

I guess I made myself into the man I feared I would be
I was stronger
I felt invincible
I rode that horse to it's grave
I devoured every soul I could eat
I was wrong and I was wrong and I was wrong for what I did

I was so stupid and bold
I'd stab you in the back for the chance to be known
I cannot fight the fear that I had as a child
I was alone in this world
And I still am
Track Name: Songsmith I: The Lake Mirror
I find myself looking into my own face from the puddle I crawled upon
Now I wait for a message from the stars
Why am I the forgotten one?

Should I try and give this thing one more chance
I better change my reasons or I'll regret it
Track Name: Songsmith II: You're Not A Killer
If I've told you once, I've told myself a thousand times
Lock yourself in a room codex and sing me a thousand lines
We don't kill for fun because now the baby bird is all alone
And the mother is in your arms

It's taken years for it to leave my head
The burning buildings
The broken bodies
The people crying
I hope you never understand
(I hope you don't understand)
Track Name: Songsmith III: Who Will Be There To Save You?
Dear Ensign, I relay this message to you
Please help me!
It is one of great importance, so be sure to follow through
Please help me!
I'm trapped in a stasis that will not be undone by a lone man
It takes the strength of others to make your own withstand
And I'll be right here lying

(Save me)
And I will be right here lying
Until you see me through

Lock down, nobody move
This isn't just a game
I think they're on to you
There's a chance for anything

(Save me)
And I will be right here waiting
Until it's time to move

Sit down, nobody move
Don't speak, don't make a sound
Get down, I'm coming through
It's time to arm ourselves

There was a battle that unfolded right before my eyes
I thought it was the end
So, let it be learned that you are going to get burned one day
Who will be there to save you?
Track Name: Songsmith IV: The Drive To Take It All
A one turns to a two and I'm the only one with open eyes
Sparks shine as I drag myself to a corner
Did the almighty dollar pull my inner child from my dreams or did I?

Did I?

Time is running and there isn't much for me to spare
I come to you as a lowly man
I've lost so many dreams on account of material things
It's all so clear when it's gone

Here in my fallen state, I have to stop this wanting
Because, where is it going?

Here I thought I was just dreaming
The closer I look, the closer I get
It is not dream that has me alarmed

It's not the dream, it's the want
It's the drive to take it all that scares the hell out of me
Because I destroy everything that I touch
That I love
That I want

I hope you're never like me
Oh baby boy, I hope you're never like me
Oh baby boy, you look like your father when he refused to sing
Oh baby boy, because he knew that I did such bad things
Oh baby boy, you have the heart to be what I can't be
Track Name: Songsmith V: Full Circle
Well son, I'm awake
Let's start our morning chores
Countless hours it will take before you can move
You see, this gift is not what we've asked for
But it would be a waste for us to fall in love and fall asleep

I must emphasize creativity because it will set you apart
Yeah, others may sing but they can't write your songs
Others may play but it's only just a toy
Yeah, others may sing but they don't know what the words mean

I'm waiting for the strength I need from you
I can't get through this with just my own
Don't save your breath until the last minute

So don't break it
Don't leave me here
I can't do this alone

Now I'm served in full
It comes full circle